people have often asked me why i like to transform myself. the reason is simple it is freeing. When i become a creature i temporarily transcend gender and feel free from conforming to the constraints of mainstream beauty.
Yes, i get a rush from experimenting. Typically, I do small spontaneous shoots while i am waiting for my other art projects to dry.
Growing up I was an awkward ginger kid and I never felt like i fit in. Pretty quickly i developed a thick skin from being the receiver of incessant bullying. I decided instead of trying to make myself fit other people's views of what was acceptable that I was going to do the opposite and push on in my own direction.
When i first started applying makeup as a preteen i usually only applied makeup to transform myself and i hardly used it for the sake of beautification. I felt ugly and that no degree of normal makeup would ever make me pretty. Transforming myself seemed to be a temporary way to rid myself from my insecurities.
During this time I went to restrictive Catholic school and I got in a lot of trouble with the administration over my avant-garde looks. Several rules were added to the student handbook , i was sent home because of my outlandish style, and the worst was having the brutal assistant principal forcibly scrub my makeup off of my face. One of my teachers said one day she will be a fashion designer.